so i started a stack

(and she's going to try to commit & be consistent. ha!)

just start writing. right? whew, ok.

hie! i’m jes. over the last 15 years or so, i’ve probably started a dozen blogs (i should see how many of my blogspots are still floating in the ether - maybe even a geocities??), instagram accounts (my raw food era was poppin’), and even a threads (i’ll probably revist that eventually). i would start off strong! excited! inspired! i was witty and pretty and fun and omg this time i’m going to stick with it! and then. slowly. fear. exhaustion. lack of time. no engagement due to lack of desire to really put myself out there bc imposter syndrome. or you know, life would happen. and then i would forget it ever existed. womp womp.

i’m not saying this time will be different. i’m still a little scared and exhausted and am terrible at putting myself out there bc of the aforementioned imposter syndrome. the one notable difference is that this time around - i really give a shit about what i want to share. i mean, i really gave a shit about raw foods and aesthetics too - but what i want to share is coming from my something that stirs my soul. it gives me butterflies.

so what’s this stack going to be about? probably a lot of different things. i’m a libra with undiagnosed adult adhd and my hands in a lotta pots:

there’s going to be lots of ayurveda talk. it’s one of the things i’m currently studying. i’m about to start my 2nd year of school next month. i had an epic 3 week internship at an ayurvedic hospital in kannur, kerala, india last year. we learned how to make medicines and practice treatments. i’ll probably tell you how very pitta i am or how vitiated my vata is and how there’s some kapha that’s traumatizing my thighs.

i might talk about jyotisa too. jyotisa is hindu astrology - (i’m cancer ascendant - total moon bb). i’m a year and a half into my studies (my teacher is of a north indian style jyotisa lineage). i LOVE it. and listen, i’m a preeeeeetty smart person, but jyotisa makes me feel dumb. a lot. it breaks my brain in the best, most beautiful ways and i constantly want more more more. it fascinates me to no end. so yeah, i’m definitely going to talk about it.

i eat a lot. i cook a lot too. food is crucial - everything, really - in ayurveda so there will be lots of high aesthetic photos of delicious dosha specific creations i make. food porn never gets old for me. ever.

i’m 46 and whilst i look and act way younger (bc of my delicious daily face abhyanga w delicious ayurvedic oils and fantastic genes) - my body is aware of its age. and the body will do what it will do and hormones are going to hormone, and lordt are they hormoning. therefore there will be lots of talk about my perimenopause journey - things i’m trying (herbs, asana, body treatments, foods, etc) - to try to ease the process. iykyk.

oh, and there’s going to be a lot of talk about magic bc i’m a witch and that’s what we do. bibbity bobbity boo.

i’m going to shoot for one post a week (or two). i’m going to try to make you laugh and teach you some shit that will hopefully help you make your life be better. so please, stick around, engage, ask me questions, tell me cute things and let’s heal together.

just so you know what delightful mayhem you’re dealing with, this is me!